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| Because I think white letters on black is way easier to read. Why, yes, I don't actually use this Xanga. Why am I updating, you ask, and rightly so might I add.
Because I'm bored.
Ayup.
I need to finish choreographing / teaching my dance for RDT on Sunday. And also need to choreograph a whole 'nother dance (a duet) by Monday. **sigh** I need a break from choreographing. I'm just not very creative in that way, and so I'm really slow.
RDT website (WITH CONCERT INFO): www.rice.edu/rdt/
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. . . no, but seriously, the show is in two weekends (the 13th and 14th). And it's awesome. Check it out.
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| So I know not many people are subscribed to this... but do you or anyone you know have a car they'd be willing to part with for the weekend? A friend and I were planning on going to Dallas Thursday night and returning Sunday evening, but our transportation fell through. We'd take good care of the car! ^__^ Both us of have certified licenses, one from Texas, the other a EU license from Hungary. Yum.
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| In which I post to Xanga, because hardly anyone knows about it or reads it, because too many angsty posts on one Livejournal is narcissistic and excessive and boring, because my last post was interpreted by someone else in a way it wasn't meant but which led to *actual* angsting (as opposed to what I was feeling in said post, which was more poking fun at myself for being stupid and a girl).
How can you be friends with someone for years and years and then give all that up? How can you grow to be so comfortable with one person that you feel empty or torn, like half a person, when you're apart, and only feel like Yourself when you're together? How can you know another person better than you know yourself, and be comforted by the fact that they understand you even better than you know yourself, and then stop talking to them?
I've never understood the whole "I don't want to date so-and-so because I'm afraid of ruining our friendship" sentiment. No, badly worded. I *do* understand that, but only because I was afraid that if the romantic relationship ended badly that the So-and-So would not be able to revert back to friendship and thus the friendship relationship would end up being ruined. I, on the other hand, am all for remaining friends. I would only fall (romantically, sozusagen) in love with someone I am already good friends with. Why would I ever ever want to give that up?
I understand that people are different, that maybe it is hard for some people. I get that. But I can't reconcile myself to it. At all.
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On a tangentially related note (and now we're back to the original post), I guess that's why I have no idea how to control these... crushes, infatuations with a few people. Usually I'm friends with someone first before I realize I like them. And I'm comfortable with them by then, know all the ins and outs of their mind and manners of speech and idiosyncracies and pet peeves. But I have no practice with this head-over-heels thing I have with a couple of people, so that I stammer and can't speak and can't even look at them because I'm afraid my heart will tear out of my chest and go all tingly if they're in the same room (or, god forbid, brush against me on their way past)... and with all that, how could I ever become friends with them? They never see me as I act with others; they only see me acting a fool.
It's annoying as hell.
Get out of my head.
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| Yo. Anyone have a MATH 102 book?
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